I know when most people wake up they look at themselves in the morning, but have you ever actually looked deep into your eyes? I do it every morning. In life you have to know what you want and in my life my priorities were out of order, until i got checked up the right way, learning from my mistakes and cherishing my failures. Because it made me the man I am today.I still have long ways to go, but i cant wait for the ride and adventure.
When i look into my eyes i see a man, a man who will succeed, who will do what it takes to get to the top! Through all the obstacles i have faced, my failures and mistakes taught me more then any person can. I have finally learned to put school above basketball and being independent (working)
School is very important to me now. In High School i thought it was bull shit,and that mentality lead me to a deep hole, ignoring counselors, friends and family. I realized it and i checked myself up. I learned to stop thinking that people are against but instead are with me, and they would do anything to help me. An education is great, exercising your mind is as important as exercising your body. I'm stuck between Sports Med or Kinesiology for my major. I have time to decide on what i really want from school, which comes from just going with the flow of life.
But just because i take school serious now doesn't mean I don't have the same aspirations towards my future of playing Professional Basketball. Basketball is my life, that's just who Farzan Johnathan Sadiyan is. Basketball is who I am. I eat, sleep and breathe Basketball. Its on my mind 24/7 and it isnt just a sport to me its, my life.
As time gets difficult because of the recession i realized that i have to step up and work two jobs to handle my own needs.
I feel like everyone needs to be independent. It gives you a different view on life, and shows what it takes to be out in the real world.
If it wasn't for my brother i probably wouldn't look at life the same way. He was right by my side through everything, and once i make it, I cant wait to just pay him back for what he has done for me. It makes me so happy to have someone right there with you through the up and downs. I honestly don't know where i would be if i didn't have my brother. that's why i try to spread my positive energy to everyone possible to make this world a peaceful happy place. Just trying to spread what my brother taught me, because i know there's people out there who might be in the same position as me or even worse who can use advice, support, and love. I just want to start a chain to make this world a better place.
I used to think that i needed a girl there for my life to be happy. When it truly wouldn't make me happy, just makes it worse in the long run. The only person who can make you happy is yourself, and with you being yourself, your energy attracts to someone who is compatible with you.
I've sat down many times forcing myself to like a girl when really it's just a waste of time because it wont go anywhere. I used to like a girl and i thought i needed her so bad, when really all I needed was myself and with time that right person will come. As weird as it sounds there is this special girl out there, and i realized that... Damn! Her and i have been going up and down for almost 3 years? there has to be a reason to it. As much it was a love-hate relationship, it was a lack of making it work, and really it can work. There is some things in life that you just have to let go of, but when you know that something can work, you cant let go of it. Its simple i loved being around/talking to her because i was being myself and it cant get better then that. Its crazy that i just realized this now, but its never to late for anything in life. Everyday is a new day!
I made this blog tonight because i feel like everyone's Priorities and Dreams are important. Keeping them in the right order can change your life in a positive way. Don't sit around not going after your dreams. get up and go after it! don't waste your days not doing what you really want to do, because you will regret it later on in life. Don't be afraid to take chances in anything because you will not learn. Mistakes/failures are one of the ways of growing up and being a better person mentally. If there is someone out there you like/love don't be afraid to be yourself and express how you feel.you never know what can happen. just keep your head up because their is someone out there for everyone.
"Whats meant to be will find its way"
Love My BHBL Team, 3-1 "Get Buckets"
Songs of the Day:
Lloyd- Things I Like About You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_f93EqSmdJw
Miguel Jontel ft. J. Cole - All I Want Is You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hInHHByhvak
Shout Outs: Sam Simino, Ariel Rofeim, Jason Manoocheri, Mike Monempour, Shawn Shamoeil, Amir Hoobim, Brandon Cohan, Markus Silbiger, Chantalle Noormand, Neda Malki, Nicolette Emma Mehdi, Neema Hakimianpour,& Brandon Imani
