Sometimes in life, you come into contact with something that leaves you speechless. It leaves you in awe. At first, you panic, because you don't know how to react and you realize that you've never encountered something like this. Once you've given it some time to sink in, you start to tell yourself that you've been through this before but who are you kidding. If you had really dealt with something like this in the past, you wouldn't feel so stupid right now. For some reason, your heart wont let you stick to the gameplan and react the way you ussually would. I've sat at my computer for about an hour now typing and deleting, trying to find the perfect words to describe the way I feel right now. However,the more I think about, the more I realize how impossible it is to define it. This undescribable feeling comes in many different shapes and forms. In my case,it came in the form of butterflys in my stomach.
My high school experience was unlike any other. For the vast majority of my 4 years in high shcool, I made a strong effort to live life to the fullest and take advantage of my last chance to be a kid. However, Just like any other high school teen, I had my moments where I hit rock bottom and felt unhappy and helpless. I had a girlfriend my freshmen and sophmore years and she meant the world to me. At this point in my life the quote “I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you” really applied to me. I was a completely different person for the better when I was with my girlfriend. She really brought out the best in me and comforted me anytime something was wrong. She was more than just a girlfriend to me. She was also my best friend. So you can only imagine how hard it was for me to let go of her and move on when we broke up. This was the first time in my life I experienced an undescribable feeling.
At this point, I was a really bitter, selfish person. I felt lost without my girl and naturally I reacted the same way any other immature high school kid would. I went out and tried hook up with as many girls as i possibly could, thinking that it would help me get over my ex. Once again, I was wrong and I had to learn the hard way. Instead of moving on, I held on to the bitter taste of my ex girlfriend and tried to replace her with every girl I hooked up with. After a while, I finally realized that no girl could ever replace my ex. Everyone is different and hopefully, one day, I'll find someone who suits me as well, or even better than my ex. Another quote that comes to mind as I reflect on this point in time is "sometimes in life you just gotta roll with punches." High school taught me a very important lesson that I will cherish and hold for the rest of my life. When you want something so bad that its on your mind all the time, its hard to be patient but sometimes thats all you can do. You just gotta sit back, relax, and go with the flow. My brother and a few of my close friends taught me to always stay positive and make the best out of every situation. Enjoy high school, go nuts, and be a kid.
High school is over. Its my summer going into college and the only thats been on my mind is basketball. I've been busting my ass and working hard to get in shape and ready for college ball. The taught of being one step closer to achieving my dream makes me tingle and BOOM! The butterflys are back. I've been looking for the perfect girl all throughout high school and right when I loose hope, there she is. At first, I was really hesitant. I was scared to expose myself. I remembered what happened when I was a sophmore and the effect it had on my life. This is such an important period of my life and I can't afford to let that happen again. Suddenly, I realized that I was all wrong. For a short while I forgot everything I learned over the past few years. Everyones a different person and everyone deserves a chance. Life is all about taking risks and putting it all on the line. Sometimes, you get knocked down and it feels like shit, but the few times it does work out, the feeling of joy and accomplishment is undescribable.
When you first meet that special someone that's unique yet still manages to have so much in common with you, it leaves you in shock. It feels like its to good to be true and you try desperately to find a flaw, but you cant.
When I'm around her, I get this positive vibe unlike any other. Suddenly, all my problems and all my regrets have vanished. I feel like I'm on cloud 9 and nothing can bring me down. This undescribable feeling is a high unlike any other, rushing through my entire body.
I'm trying my best to use words to describe the way I feel right now but I just cant. My friends tell me to slow down, watch my back, and take things slower. They tell me that I have a lot more important stuff to focus on right now but none of it matters. It all goes in one ear and out the other. I can't change the way I feel and I'm not scared to take a risk. Sure, it could just turn out to be another mistake, another fuckup. However, the way I see it, is that the feeling of success totaly outweighs the feeling of regret, so its time to let my nuts hang. I refuse to let this slip away from me and I'm gonna do everything in my power to make sure that it all works out. And if it doesn't, oh well, I'll learn from it and I guess I'll have more to write about ;)....
“I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.”
-Farzan Johnathan Azinkhan
Have fun on your trip danny,Enjoy it, You only live once baby!! I love you bro/bestfriend
Song of the Day: Audio Push-Up & Down
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JygDv_e9rgc
Vice-I wish you were single
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDTpjGk8GiA
Shout Outs:Matt Parvizyar,Sean Adasha, Alexys Calhoun, Chantalle Noormand, Mike Monempour,Danielle Gabai
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